For my grandmother: A Los Angeles story

By Xochitl-Julisa Bermejo–

In my search and thirst for the past, for the faces of our history, I have forgotten the faces that brought me to the subject of immigration in the first place. I forget that the story isn’t always something out there in the world, but something right here inside my own home, and my own family.

My family decided to have a Catholic mass in my grandmother’s (my father’s mother) honor this past January. In December my grandmother was in the hospital after she suffered an episode, which many of us feared was a stroke, and that our worst fear––the inevitable truth of her passing––was upon us.

Watching her, my tiny grandmother, skin as delicate as tissue paper, laid crumpled in her bed, I tried to hold back tears, as I suspect we all did, in what seemed like an attempt to keep this fragile creature from dissolving.

Thankfully, it wasn’t a stroke, and she was back in her Boyle Heights home by Christmas Eve. To celebrate, we had a mass said in her honor this past weekend in a small Catholic church, Mission San Conrado, up above Solano Avenue, in the shadow of Chavez Ravine and Dodger Stadium.

From left to right: my father, grandmother, mother, and me

Yesterday, once again looking through Don Normack’s photos from the book, Chavez Ravine, 1949: A Los Angeles Story, I came across a black and white landscape shot of Solano Avenue and the north slope of La Loma. The homes of La Loma are gone now, but the church, the site of my grandmother’s mass, stands at the foot of that hill, and it is still green, still looking untouched. My brother Andres took his son Armando and our nephew Gabrielito up the steps behind the church, past the ceramic alter to the Virgin Mary, to explore the greenery. I wasn’t up there with them, but I’m sure the boys played pirate, adventurer, conqueror, as I’m sure the boys of La Loma did 60-70 years earlier.

Inside the church, during the homily, the priest (speaking only in Spanish) addressed my grandmother, who with the help of her youngest daughter slowly rose to her feet. He asked her, are all your children here? She nodded. And are these young people your grandchildren and great-grandchildren? She smiled and nodded.

Some of the great-grandchildren attempting to sing for their great-grandmother

And señora, he asked, where are you from in Mexico? Teocaltiche (a small pueblo in Jalisco, Mexico), someone in the aisles assisted. Is anyone else here from Teocaltiche? My father raised his hand high up and let a proud grin spread wide over his face. And señora, how long have you been here? My grandmother laughed, shyly keeping her glance low in what seemed like an old school sign of respect for clergy, Cincuenta años. Fifty years, she told him.

And here I was trying to find an L.A. story, lamenting the loss of a culture and a people, not realizing that culture still lived in Chavez Ravine. Normack’s photos illustrate a lost town, but the hills are still there, the Spanish is still there, and family is still there.

In 1949 Normack stumbled into Chavez Ravine. In 1949 my grandmother had 3 young children, in a poor pueblo in Jalisco, Mexico (my father once told me how they didn’t have electricity in Teocaltiche, and that the children waited for full moons to play out in the streets at night). In 1949, the inhabitants of those three Los Angeles communities grew their own vegetables and milked goats that grazed along the green hills all around them. In 1949, my father scaled the hills surrounding his town with his grandmother to collect nopales (cactus) to accompany the simple meal of frijoles, chile, and tortillas his mother was preparing for dinner.

My father, first on the left, with his siblings, cousins, and grandfather in Teocaltiche, Mexico

And now in 2010, sixty-one years later, the houses on the hill of La Loma are gone, but my family thrives. And my small, unassuming grandmother stands in a church beaming with pride to be surrounded by her still growing family of seven children, nineteen grandchildren, and twenty great-grandchildren. And in an hour two of those great-grandchildren, Armando and Gabrielito, will be conquering the hill just outside. And somehow, there is comfort in knowing nothing is ever completely gone.

Xochitl-Julisa Bermejo is a Los Angeles native and Chicana writer, by whom she and others refer to as part of the Splinter Generation.  She is currently the author of two blogs, The Immigration Project and If I Had a Blog.

11 Comments »

  1. avatar Richard Bermejo Says:

    This is a beautiful story about a beautiful and strong woman and I appreciate the timeless details you put into it. Again, Great job and thank you Xochitl.

  2. avatar Imelda Bermejo Says:

    I am the mother of a great daugther, writer, poet, teacher. She has always written with her heart and it always comes through. The family is very proud of my “Baby” who has grown to be a beautiful woman.

  3. avatar Laura Says:

    This is a lovely piece. Thank you for sharing some of your family’s stories. Would love to read more of them!

  4. avatar Lisa Says:

    This was a really touching piece Xoxhitl….

  5. avatar Celina Says:

    Xoxhitl–This was lovely. I was especially connected to it because my grandmother and mother lived in Teocaltiche many years before coming to Los Angeles (where I’m from). They are originally from Nochistlan.

    Do you know the names of your family in Teocaltiche?

  6. avatar Xochitl-Julisa Says:

    Hi Celina! My family’s name is Bermejo. What years were your grandmother and mother there? Perhaps my family knew them.

  7. avatar tisha Says:

    Xochitl makes me feel like I am part of her family. On a rainy day, her lyrical prose warms me; she inspires me to document my family history too.

  8. avatar Diane Says:

    Lovely post and great pictures

  9. avatar matthew Says:

    What a touching and insightful story! Makes me want to fly through my Midwest experience in search of candid family memories. I only hope that I could do them half the justice that you did with your family in LA. Thank you for the motivational writing.

  10. avatar Melissa Chadburn Says:

    So touching, warms my heart on a monday morning. Reminds me of my summers with my filipina Lola she would take me to church everyday. When she grew senile she would wake up in the middle of the night and drive to church because it was so hard wired in her routine. There’s something about winter and cake walks and prayers and candles and worship and sacrifice that makes me very nostalgic.I can taste your story

  11. avatar Xochitl-Julisa Says:

    Thank you so much for reading, and for your kind words.

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